Spirituality & Updates

[Gabrielle]

Made a lot of progress. It's been awhile since I've posted on my blog. I've gotten better with the sleep attacks. The sleep attacks can be intense, but then a few things have shifted. I have been preparing myself mentally for the Fall. This is when depression sets in for a lot of people including me, so I've prepared myself and have been carefully extending my spiritual practice a bit. One night I lit a red candle and burned some incense. This simple ritual made my day much better the following morning.

I purchased an 'athame' over the net. I was a little disappointed that it wasn't hand crafted. It actually says 'made in Pakistan' but it will do. It is a symbol of strength for me. I now have a some more ritual tools: a selenite wand, some velvet sage, sandalwood rose incense, and some mugwort in a small shoebox, a marble chalice, and various other odds and ends. I think that my tools have helped me strengthen my subconscious. If you treat your tools with respect so they will to you. I'm still so skeptical, but I am trying to learn more about Wicca.

I've been reading 'A Book of Pagan Prayers' and it's giving me some inspiration for ritual design as well as prayer writings. But I do want to get more into rituals too. I want to make a poppet sometime, I know this can be an effective way of directing the spirits. My belief system currently stands at: Rebirth Exists, Ghosts & Angels do exist, Everything is Conscious and Alive.

Now back to ghosts. I don't know if the sleep attacks are part of some spirit phenomena or not. But I am pretty sure they are. I have been physically responding to his attacks, after a few readings I have chosen the name 'Ajay' for the man behind the ghost. I am not sure if he was a violent predator in his past life. He could have been. He is not so nice. The last dream I had I actually encountered him, very different then the real sleep attacks. So I think I released him. In the dream he tried to pin me to the floor and I fought him to pin him down before I stepped over him and ran away. Then I ascended into the stars. It was a very vivid dream and very remarkable. I've made a lot of progress. I have a faint memory of another encounter, I invoked the elements without hardly any thought to it. It does work. Evoking also works very well.

Guardian Angels will answer, it takes them less than 11 seconds to reach you when you call for help. I've been told this by one I believe.
It's important to ascend, instead of continually battling with whatever he or it is that is haunting me like this.
Anyways: I helped someone out with an I Ching reading a few days ago....I feel proud of this. I like to look for chances to be help people. The reading already had the answers he was looking for.
Much of my life has been about directing the flow to where it needs to be like starting college, finishing my memoir, finding valuable friends.

Though I admit some affirmation of the spirit world might be helpful to me. I think I know now a good way to start: with an evocation of angelic beings to bring me the person I need to
And through ascended masters.
Spirit Guide or Higher Self: Ayadeva.

I need to do more physical rituals though other than just mental rituals and mantras.
I need to have some physical results and effect the world in a positive real way.
I want to go deeper and get deeper but I'm a little lost as to how to get deeper without falling into a rabbit hole.